so there's that

(me to my brother via text) Beau, dad won't let us keep a protective light saber in our car and he won't tell me why.

(beau back to me) Who does he think he is, Darth Vader?!

so I got a twitter.  I kinda hate it.  I really don't feel like figuring out twitter and how it works or anything and mostly I just want to delete it.  Even the funnier tweets really aren't that funny soooo.

Google+ would be cool except the only good thing about is group video chat capabilities, which would be nice except 

a.) I don't have a webcam

b.) I don't have a google+

c.) I don't really need/want any more social media.

Youtube has been overwhelming me lately.  I can't keep up with subscriptions any more and I don't like having so many unwatched videos in my subscription box.  Makes me antsy.

I'm going over to Marissa's tonight for a 90's tv marathon which is awesome except I fear that I will be forced to watch copious amounts of Hey Arnold.  Gotta be honest with ya internet, I always hated that show.

Started swim lessons today.  The first little girl I taught wouldn't even put her head under and kept yelling I'M NAWT COMFABLE DOING GLIDDEESSS NOOOOOOOOO NOOOO.  NO MEANS NO.  So yeah.  And then for the second class I had a pair of siblings to teach. They were really sweet and nice so I enjoyed teaching them.  

I have $7.05 left in my bank account.  I don't get paid till Friday and it won't be very much.  I owe my parents $360 for blowing out two tires.  I need to buy a flipcam before school starts so that I can get funny memories recorded.  I'm clearly having monetary issues and need a better job/to work more.

I'm having a one-year-left-til-college crisis.  I just started thinking about how I kind of suck at teaching kids to swim and I have no idea where I got the idea that I would be good at teaching a foreign language.  Sooo I just don't know what to do.  Maybe I should consider some other options for majors.  Maybe I'm freaking out for no reason.

Now I'm waiting for Marissa to text me telling me it's cool to come over.  I think I'm gonna bring my craptop over and see if I can start brainstorming for college essays.  I've recently come to the conclusion that I really hate being in the middle of things.  Like two different activities.  For example, I just got coffee with Veronica and now I'm in between that and going to Marissa's.  I'm in between high school and college in some ways because I feel super done with high school but I haven't started preparing for college yet.  It's just pretty boring being between stuff.  That's pretty much how this whole summer has felt... like a bridge between junior and senior years.  I just wanna be done with the bridge so I can muscle through senior year and go to college, but I suppose that that is no way to live life.  

It's pretty stupid but I'm pretty bored.

Okay well this was perfectly random.

I MISS SWEATERS

I really miss Winter clothes.  I always hate the cold and getting snow in my shoes and everything, but I love layering and wearing tons of clothes.  I just do.  I'm so sick of just wearing a t-shirt and shorts* every day... ugh.

*t-shirt and shorts can be substituted with my lifeguard bathing suit because I wear it pretty much all the time... but I ain't sick of that yet.

this is not a video response at all.

This is my response to this video by PJ! He asked his viewers to answer questions regarding their Harry Potter favorites and those questions arrrre:

Which house you would be in, what your patronus would be, favorite subject, favorite place, favorite line, favorite moment, and favorite character.

LET'S GO.

House- Gryffindor.  I'm not evil, I'm not too quick-witted, and I'm not good at finding things.  I am brave though, and I'm pretty outspoken.  I look like a lion.

My patronus would probably be a cat, but I don't want to be like Umbridge so I think that mine must be a lion.  Lions are big and loud and scary. Once you get up close enough to touch them, they have very soft fur, which you may touch until they bite your fucking hand off.  That's me.

I'm not quite sure what my favorite subject would be.  I'm really good at languages so if there were a parseltongue class, I would be set.  Unfortunately there isn't so it's basically a matter of narrowing all of the classes down.  I suck at chemistry so I probably wouldn't be any good at Potions.  I'm not good at the more subjective aspects of English so I would be awful at Divination.  I think I would probably find my strength in Transfiguration or Charms.  I think I would also be good at Quidditch if I was a beater.

There are a lot of places I liked in Harry Potter.  I liked the Burrow a lot, for obvious reasons, but I also loved the Black family mansion.  I think I liked the mansion because it held so many secrets and obscurities.  There was so much to be found there.  I loved the room of requirement towards the end of the 7th book with all of Dumbledore’s army living in it.  Lauren (vloggerqueen17) said she didn't like it because it seemed kind of sad, but I kind of wish that there had been an extra scene in which they showed what had been going on the whole time in that room.  I have to imagine that the same as when Mr. and Mrs. Weasley got married in the middle of the last wizard war, the Hogwarts students in the room of requirement handled their situation similarly.  Although there is a war going on, people had to remember then more than ever that they only have so long to live.  The students in the room of requirement had to have had some good times.  They must have danced and played cards and laughed and had drinks with Aberforth, because how else could they have made it through Hogwarts that year?

My favorite line was after Mrs. Weasley said that every Weasley boy had been named Prefect and George says "What are Fred and I, next door neighbors?"  I pretty much loved it every time they said anything ever.  I also loved when George made the "I'm holey" joke after he lost an ear.

My favorite moment may have been when Snape asked Harry to look him in the eyes before he died.  I'm not sure if I cried when I read that but I may have.  My favorite moment in the movies was during the pensive scene with Snape's life montage.  I'm not really a movie-crier but during the part where Snape discovered Lily's dead body I teared up a little bit. There were two particularly gruesome scenes I loved in the newest Potter movie: the first being the scene with Voldemort and Nagini standing over all of the dead people Nagini ate, and the second was when Fenrir was eating Lavender Brown.  I don't know why but that was just the coolest scene ever.  Take that Twilight, OUR WEREWOLVES EAT PEOPLE.

Other great moments were when they visited the St. Mungo's and they saw Neville and his parents there.  I agree with Lauren that the Weasley mourning scene in the 7th book after Fred was killed was absolutely glorious.  You never really see the Weasley's as a family without anyone else there, but in that scene it was just the Weasley's and their mourning.  Usually someone else is present when they interact (Harry, Hermione, the order) so it was nice to see them as a family by themselves.  The movie did a really good job of that.

My favorite character was definitely a boy.  I don't know which one.  I've always had a crush on Fred and George because they're so funny, but I also love Ron with all my heart.  Ron, I think, is the most real character of everyone because you see him being selfish and upset for petty reasons, which is what everyone does.  Harry's pissed off from book four until book six but it's for more pressing issues than anything Ron ever got pissed about.  I like that.  I also love Neville and Dean Thomas.  And Dobby.

yuhhhhh.  Okay.  Tonight I realized that I have the same hair as Narcissa Malfoy.  Did anyone else think that two very serious lines were dictated really funny?

1.  The way Voldy said "AVADA KEDAVRA" left me laughing in the theater while the chick next to me was crying.

2.  Mrs. Weasley's dictation of "NOT MY DAUGHTER YOU BITCH" was too... cheesy for me.  It didn't really sound much like Mrs. Weasley... I don't know, it was just weird.

RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU WERE DISAPPOINTED THAT DUMBY AND HP WEREN'T NAKED AT KING'S CROSS.  I mean... I didn't think they would be naked but I didn't really want them to be closed either.

PREPOSITION TIME

So like I just said in my Jaycee Dugard post, some idiomatic prepositions can seem wrong sometimes.  Sometimes you should be able to pick a different preposition or phrase instead.

The technically correct way to say this would be:  Jaycee Dugard had two daughters with Phillip Garrido.

The preposition, with, in this situation makes it sound like Garrido was with Jaycee in a way that a father should be but being with someone is physically being there with them, the whole time.  Not locking them in a shed for the nine months of the pregnancy.  That's not how it works.

Jaycee Dugard had two daughters by herself but Phillip Garrido was kind of involved I guess.

Another example of this preposition failure is with "to fall in love with."  Embarrassingly enough for me, sometimes you fall in love alone.  I'm not particularly in love with anyone, but sometimes I am definitely in love at a boy.  or two.  or seven.  It's like falling in love alone, falling in love at.

Same thing with talking to.  I'm sure you've felt this too, sometimes are people talking at you?  Not to you.  Just at you.  Hammering their words into you?  Yeah, you know how this feels.

and on a different note:

"Maybe I believe in a higher power, but I believe in nature and the beauty around me."
-Jaycee Dugard

Me too.  I don't know anything about God and I don't believe I ever will, but I sure do believe in the universe.  I like that to me, the universe created everything.  It is the mother and father of everything.  Isn't that what a God is anyways?

Alright and I leave you with a question I've been asking myself for a few weeks now that I can't figure out:
If you know something and then find out that what you knew was false, did you ever really know it in the first place?  Am I crazy, do you understand what I mean?

Jaycee Dugard!

Play catch up with me:  I just watched this because of this.

And if you don't have an hour and a half to spare watching those (the second is much shorter than the first, I just love Michael Buckley.) this is the recap:  the first link is to Diane Sawyer's interview with Jaycee Dugard.  Jaycee was kidnapped in 1991 when she was 11 and was found by a couple of female police officers 18 years later when Jaycee was 29.  She had been kidnapped by a convicted pedophile and his wife (which is definitely a what the fuck kind of thing) on her way to school one day.  Obvies (because the guy was a pedophile) Jaycee was raped, a lot, by the guy and she ended up having two daughters with* him.  She wrote a book about her experience because she has trouble actually saying out loud what had happened to her (which is way interesting) and the book is called "a life stolen."

I have about a bazillion questions about this, which is why I am posting about it at all.

- So she had only had up to a 5th grade education when she was 29 years old.  I mean... what do you do with that?  Other than the obvious suck things that have been a result of this, this is just one of those extraneous terrible things resulting from being kidnapped for 18 years but... man.

- What the hell was the wife of the pedophile thinking when she decided to let her husband have a mistress in the form of an 11 year old girl?

- Why would that woman marry the pedophile in the first place?  He's a pedophile... meaning he's attracted to children.  Pedophilia is like a two-fold turn-off because 1. he's attracted to children and 2. he's not attracted to you, adult wife, because you are an adult.  

-  There isn't a question of where was law enforcement because if they weren't outside of the house looking for Jaycee, they were inside the house not looking for Jaycee.  So I guess that the only question left for law enforcement is HEY WHAT THE HECK

so many fails on so many parts.

*this is one of those situations where I question the preposition used in this phrase, to have children with someone.  There will be a post to follow this one on prepositions. 

man it's getting real close to bacon time.

explanation.

okay all is rectified, I'm a whiny white girl but what else is new.  My parents are going to let me see Harry Potter alone!

Okay, now internet, I'm really not sure if I have explained to you why I've been feeling so bad about whining lately (other than the standard "bitches be less fortunate than me" thing).  This is why:

White Whine: a collection of first-world problems!

Yeah so this is why.  I'm afraid that someone will find my blog and put it on white whine.  This website keeps me in check because I have pretty much cut down more than half of my internet whining because of it.  It's also probably why I haven't posted much on here recently because I realized (well I already knew, I just didn't care before) that a lot of what I write is pretty whiny and I should probably just shut up and enjoy my life.

maaaaaaaan

So here's the crappy, whiny deal.  I really didn't want to come to the beach this week.  It's nice and pretty and great and whatever but I've been here almost every Summer of my life and I just got back from Europe so I'm pretty tired and I'm pretty broke.  I need to work and I need to sleep.

But alas, I am here in the outer banks.  It's beautiful and nostalgic and I had a really nice day at the beach.

BACK TO MY WHINING

Well the other rub of it is that the new Harry Potter movie comes out Friday and I will still be here, which really REALLY sucks.  I mean if there's one thing that I am upset to be missing, it's the Harry Potter premier.  And you say, but Hayley, isn't there a movie theater in the outer banks?  Yes, there are three.  And yes, I can still buy a ticket and see Harry Potter.  The problem is though, internet, that I have no friends out here to go with.  Believe me, I would LOVE to go see this last movie alone.  Seriously.  It would be nice to just sit there and love it.  Of course though, my mother hath decided that it is far too dangerous for me to go to the movie alone and has therefore decided that this is a family activity and that we will all go.

Wait, seriously?  Everyone?  I've been reading Harry Potter since I was 8 and when the final movie comes out I have to go with the whole family? FOR REAL?

This isn't the end of Harry Potter because the fandom will go on but I mean really internet,  this is the end of new Harry Potter things.  As far as we know*.   I love my family and everything and I would be happy to see the premier of some other movie with them but I really really don't want to have to explain things to them about it or hear them whining about certain aspects of the movie or have to discuss it with them when they haven't been so Harry Potter keen all these years.  I just want to sit there and love it and let it be fantastic and then it's over.

fin.

*Pottermore is crap and we all know it.