crybaby

So, in gymnastics, sometimes you land on your face.  It happens.  It's never fun, it's never pleasant, and it's always scary but you'll be fine.  Wait, won't you?  No, get back up on the mini-tramp and try that trick again.  You can do it.  You can do it right?  What hurts?  No it's okay.  No, you'll be okay.  Hayley come on.  You'll be okay.  Try it again.  You're not pushing yourself hard enough, dust yourself off and make sure to take some ibuprofen when you get home.

You've taken ibuprofen, huh?  And it still hurts?  It couldn't have been from that fall, Hayley.  You were okay after that, weren't you?  I thought you were okay.  You're always okay.  Just try a few back-hand-springs Hayley.  Don't you want to show your mom a whip back next Sunday?  Well then try again.   Your back still hurts?  Well ice when you get home, you're just sore because you haven't been to practice in awhile.  Try again.  Harder.   Faster.  Again.  Again.  Harder.  Faster.  Again.  Again.

Stop complaining Hayley, it's not that bad.  It's only been three and a half weeks.  It has definitely started feeling better since at first, right?  No?  You probably don't remember what it was like at first anyways.  Come on Hayley.  Faster.  Harder.  Again.  Again.  Again.  Stop complaining.  Why don't you go to the gym?  Why don't you do something.  Come on, stop talking about your back.  Not everyone needs to know how "hurt" you are.  Hayley, faster.  Come on Hayley.

Hayley, man up.  You're scared, huh?  Why's that?  Oh, that again.  When you breathe, huh?   And when you stretch?  And when you cry?  And when you cry.  And painkillers don't help?  Well how many do you take?  Well... that's more than someone your size should be taking anyways.  And... you're scared?  Yeah you're scared.  Hayley, you're scared.

You're scared Hayley.  And you're crying.  And you took four ibuprofen.  And it still hurts.

Maybe it's just extra sensitive today.  And maybe it was just extra sensitive yesterday too.  And just so you know, Hayley, are you even listening to me?   It's probably going to be extra sensitive tomorrow too.

(disclaimer:  these are absolutely in no way the words of my coach.  this is everything going on completely inside my head.)