I'm babysitting and I'm bored

I'm pretty sick of getting discouraged in English.  I obviously realize that there are students in the class who take words and make them into art and are awesome at explaining themselves and thinking of ideas but I just feel like I should at least be in the top half of my class and I'm not.  It makes me not want to write much anymore.  Which  is stupid, because I obviously like writing I'm just kind of tired of sucking at it and it's pretty difficult to actively work on improving something that has always felt natural.  What I mean by that is, I don't really think about the way I'm saying what I want to say so much as I typically just let it come from my fingertips onto the paper (or, less romantically, the screen) and then at the end I look it over and maybe change to words but really I just kind of do it naturally.  And I like how I write.

So whatever I guess.  Stop sippin' the haterade.

I know I've already talked about girl lingo and shit girls say that piss me off but this THIS SHIT

"I don't want to be the girl you call hot; I want to be the girl you call beautiful."

...not that the person who writes that ever knows that it oughtta be a semicolon or colon instead of a comma

but moving on, this is so annoying in so many ways.  let's count them.

1.  While I realize that being called beautiful as like, a surprising thing, is nice, I swear to god it typically sounds insincere for some reason to me.  Which might be an indicator of self esteem issues or whatever, but it's not.  I practically drip with confidence.  But I can stay from experience that when a guy whispers You're not hot; you're BEAUTIFUL it really feels nothing short of fake and scripted.  There aren't cameras around, what's the point of denying yourself the risk and joy of coming up with your own words.

2.  I'm not trying to say that guys shouldn't call girls beautiful-- that's their perogative.  But girls should stop being so demanding and should stop watching romantic comedies/novel-turned-movie Nicholas Sparks shit.  I believe that love will happen wonderfully and uniquely and it will be awesome and you'll have your stories to tell one day no matter what, you shouldn't ruin them by writing the dialogue ahead of time.

3.  Being hot is not a bad thing.

Another quote that was cute when I was 12 and is not cute now:  Shoot for the moon, cuz even if you miss you'll land among the stars <3333

BLECH PUKE GROSS STOP IT

If I was on a space mission to the moon, I would get pretty pissed off if I landed among the stars for the record.

And that is how I would like to conclude this post.

gripe

alright what the fuck is with this current influx of girls who think their thoughts are interesting enough that they might generate a blog audience.

i just realized how hypocritical that was.

but their blogs aren't even well written!

Shivering.

There is nothing, absolutely nothing worse in the whole world than waking up warm, and cozy, and comfortable, and still sleepy, and wonderful, and wiping the sand from your eyes (so gently placed by the sandman), and stretching your arms up to the sun, and cracking your back just a little, and getting out of bed, in comfy leggings, and thick socks, and an Ecuador sweatshirt that reminds you of your brother who you miss, and ever so slowly walking into the green bathroom, and turning the knob of the shower, and then biding your time for a few minutes, but eventually, you get in and IT'S SO FUCKING COLD AND NOTHING WILL NEVER BE WARM AGAIN AND YOU WILL HATE IT.

You just will.