I am having fun with Tinder, an app for meeting people you are compatible with based on a very loose definition of the word compatible. It's pretty shallow, but also pretty fun so I'm playing with it.
I'm talking to a guy right now who I plan on meeting for the first time at a bar he is playing at on Wednesday. Do you see where this is going? Maybe not yet. His name is Noah, he is 25, he is a really good musician (based on a song he wrote in a night and sent me), he appears to own his own Web-design company,
Wow typing all of that out really reinforced my feeling of "what the fuck does he see in me?" I don't even mean that in a self-deprecating way, but if I were to write a description of myself similar to the one I just wrote about him it would go like this: Her name is Hayley, she is 19, she appears to have no talents except maybe language? Maybe singing too?, she owns nothing and has no idea what she wants to create in her life.
I would say I am wise for my years, kind of, but there are things about me that are inherently nineteenish. Like for example, I pay for nothing of my own. My income is based solely on being my parents daughter, which for the record is fucking great, but I have no job or plans of getting one until I'm out of college. A few other nineteenish things about me are that I love to binge drink and with frequency but I also am not legally allowed to drink. An age gap isn't a big deal unless you let it be though, I suppose. It's the one thing about myself that I cannot fake, I cannot change.
He on the other hand appears to have tons of energy, and friends, and motivation to do things. I just kind of feel like that positive of a person firstly, should not need Tinder to get the fire burning with someone if you get my drift, and secondly, should be dating someone of similar energy levels. Like there is no fucking way this guy ever takes naps.
Maybe I'm freaking out prematurely about something I obviously cannot predict but I am obviously encouraged by the fact that we're still texting but it just doesn't seem like something that could actually happen. I don't know. I suppose I'll see.
